A Letter to My Husband

Posted on January 31, 2012

For some reason lately I have been super emotional. I have also really taken a notice to people losing loved ones and how mothers are left without their husbands to raise their children. I mean I know this happens all the time, which is sad all in itself, but I have never let it all get to me like it has lately.

I read a story last week about a mother that buried her oldest child, he was 10, only days before Christmas. A month later her husband died of a massive heart attack, he was 40. This alone set me on a downward spiral of questioning why this would happen… how much does God think one person can honestly handle, and then the fear set in. I found things in her story so very simular to my own life. She was a photographer. She was a mother to three boys. Her husband had that salt and pepper hair like my husband…. and her husband… his name was Aaron. Mine is Aaron too.

The thought of living this life without him by my side physically makes me ill. The thought of losing him, or losing my kids sends me in panic mode and I can feel my heart race and the tears well up. I wish I could shake this… I need to shake this. I cannot live my life in fear.

So in the recent days and an reoccuring dream, I finally stopped and said ENOUGH!  I evaulate all my feelings and emotions. I took some time and sorted it all out in my head, and it dawned on me….

I feel guilty!

If my husband were to leave Earth today I don’t think he would honestly know how I feel about him, or how much I appreciate everything he’s done for me, given me, and how proud of him I am. So here is my public letter to my husband….

 

Dear Aaron,

While I may not tell you nearly enough as I should, I want you to know that I love you more than I could ever love someone. I find myself loving you more each and every day. I adore you. I love your sense of humor and your ability to make me laugh even when I am at my boiling point. I appreciate everything you have ever given me, even the gold rose I keep hidden in my drawer. Ha Ha. I love that you know me so well that I don’t even have to finish what I am going to ask before you spurt off an answer. I love your intelligence and compassion. I love that you have always given me everything I want…. even when you hated it. I love that when you kiss me, you touch my face. Thank you for allowing me sleep in on sooooo many weekend mornings without quilting me when I come down finally. Thank you for cooking when I just don’t feel like it. Thank you for supporting me in so many ways. Thanks for being my rock when I have been at my lowest points and holding me when I have cried. Thank you for guiding our family and leading us in prayer. Your faith in the Lord inspires me to be a better person and be there with you, always. Thank you for having such high morals and values. You are leading great men and I am happy I have you to share this adventure with. Thank you for being my best friend. God blessed me greatly when he introduced you to me. I couldn’t imagine life without you! And I still stand by what I told you when we got married… where you lead… I will follow.

Your Loving Wife,
Stacy

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Just A Typical Saturday {Land of Smith}

Posted on January 14, 2012

Woke up to coffee and waffles. I have a good guy.

Shower and actually had time to load the hair up with product and blow dried it.

It was a good hair day.

Smashed it down with my ear warmers, pulled it up in a pony and trekked outside. So much for that rockin big waves I had going on.

It was a snow fun day.

Made snow angels, threw snow balls, identified and followed tracks with my little explorers, Eskimo kissed my love, laughed, played and made a little snow lady.

Snowanda.

It was a play hard day.


Came in with cold noses, rosy cheeks and frosty fingers.

Warmed them up with hot cocoa off the stove.

Lots of marshmellows please.

Played a board game with all my guys while we warmed up.

It was grilled cheese and tomato soup kind of lunch day.

Warmed up.

Clean up time.

A few loads of laundry done and put away. Floor mopped. Bathtub cleaned. Beds made and floors picked up. Unload and reload the dishwasher.

Sit down. Unwind. Read a little. Cuddle a little.

A little pinterest and blog time for the mama.

Legos for the guys.

Later it’s crispy chicken tenders and home made fries with a salad on the side.

A bubble baths for the little guys.

Shower for the big kid.

Bed time stories.

Hugs and kisses and good night wishes.

Lights out.

Lights dimmed for the main guy and myself.

Netflix please.

Wine oh yes!

Snuggle and maybe pinterest!

Just a typical Saturday in the Land of Smith.

I love typical days like today.

 

 

 

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My Take on Red Beans and Rice {It’s Dinner Time}

Posted on January 13, 2012

Red…. opps I mean WHITE!! :)

Please excuse me today…. I have a NyQuil hangover. {Day 6 of a nasty cold}

So I challenged the hubby and myself to cook down the pantry.

My pantry is kindly called the PANTRY OF HELL!

It is a total mess!! I felt it would be best to try and use up as much as we could on our shelves so I would have more room to redo the room. My winter project. {weee hands in the air with utter excitement. HA}

So anyways.

List of what I had on hand:

Can of Rotel Tomatoes

Can of navy beans – rinse

Turkey kielbasa – chopped

brown rice

taco sauce

Velveeta Queso cheese

Red Pepper – diced

1/2 large onion – diced

olive oil

franks hot sauce, salt and pepper to taste

I also added oregano. But I am an oregano kind of gal. Not everyone is. This dish would be just as wonderful without it! :)

So I took a good bit of olive oil and a chopped garlic clove and sauteed the onion and red pepper. I used a very large pan. Here is the pan I use

And let me tell you this thing is AWESOME!! I hardly use my other pans. This is my go to for big dinners. :) I highly recommend Rachel Ray’s cookware. I love it!

So once the onions and pepper are ready I added the kielbasa. Got it good and warm and then added the rinsed beans and tomatoes. I added 2 tbls of taco sauce. We like things a little spicy so I used a medium sauce. I also added a dash of franks hot sauce. Once it was good and warm I threw in 3 slices of the velveeta queso cheese and got it all melty. I cooked it on low while I made the rice according to the package in the microwave. Once it was done I poured into the pan and mixed it all up.

Then I called out….

Dinner time!!!!

What’s for dinner at your house tonight?

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